Off I trotted this morning for yet another date with the dildo-cam - what joy!!
Had a different nurse today (don't like her as much as the other one) and she seemed surprised that hubby wanted to sit with me during the scan. He does that with every scan though, and to be honest I don't see why he shouldn't as he's (almost) as much a part of the process as I am!!!
Anyway, I digress!!! Result of the scan is that I now have 5 follicles left on one side and 4 on the other side, which is an improvement on Wednesday when I had 6 on one side and 7 on the other. So it looks as though things are starting to improve slightly, although I still seem to be in as much pain which I don't understand. I've to go back on Monday again to have it re-check, so fingers crossed by then they've all gone so that we're ready to start again when AF arrives.
S x
Friday, 30 September 2011
I've had a pretty rough few days, hence no posting from me for a while.
I've been in quite a bit of pain since the scan last Wednesday that led to our IUI cycle being cancelled. On Thursday it was crippling - to the point I was going to get DH to take me to the hospital - but on Friday it eased off and I thought it was because I OV'd and it was more painful than normal because of the multiple follicles I'd produced (the IUI was abandoned because I over stim'd)
Anyway, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday it was as bad as every again and Wednesday was awful. My stomach was so swollen up that I looked as pregnant as the girl I work with who is almost 6 months (and I normally have a flat size 10 tummy) and I'm in pain constantly and it becomes worse when I move. I decided to phone the FC to ask their opinion, and the nurse told me to go over this afternoon to be scanned to check what's going on.
I went to the hospital, and after a scan they confirmed that it's OHSS. My ovaries are so enlarged that they were touching!!!! The nurse couldn't even see my uterus because they were blocking everything. Apparently I had 6 follicles in one ovary and 7 in the other - and they all OV'd!!! And they were all over 2mm each! No wonder I was in pain on Thursday when I OV'd. I was ordered off work for the next few days and told to rest a lot.
So, I took yesterday and today off as holidays (don't really want to take them as sick if I can help it) and yesterday I literally didn't move from the sofa all day except to have a shower. I'm due back at the hospital in about an hour and a half, and to be honest things aren't really any better. I still look about 6 months pregnant and at times I can't even do up my trousers, and still in a lot of pain although not moving has helped a bit (until I move again that is!!)
So, fingers crossed that things look a bit better on the scan today and that I don't need to a) take any more time off work and b) they don't admit me to hospital!!!
S x
I've been in quite a bit of pain since the scan last Wednesday that led to our IUI cycle being cancelled. On Thursday it was crippling - to the point I was going to get DH to take me to the hospital - but on Friday it eased off and I thought it was because I OV'd and it was more painful than normal because of the multiple follicles I'd produced (the IUI was abandoned because I over stim'd)
Anyway, Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday it was as bad as every again and Wednesday was awful. My stomach was so swollen up that I looked as pregnant as the girl I work with who is almost 6 months (and I normally have a flat size 10 tummy) and I'm in pain constantly and it becomes worse when I move. I decided to phone the FC to ask their opinion, and the nurse told me to go over this afternoon to be scanned to check what's going on.
I went to the hospital, and after a scan they confirmed that it's OHSS. My ovaries are so enlarged that they were touching!!!! The nurse couldn't even see my uterus because they were blocking everything. Apparently I had 6 follicles in one ovary and 7 in the other - and they all OV'd!!! And they were all over 2mm each! No wonder I was in pain on Thursday when I OV'd. I was ordered off work for the next few days and told to rest a lot.
So, I took yesterday and today off as holidays (don't really want to take them as sick if I can help it) and yesterday I literally didn't move from the sofa all day except to have a shower. I'm due back at the hospital in about an hour and a half, and to be honest things aren't really any better. I still look about 6 months pregnant and at times I can't even do up my trousers, and still in a lot of pain although not moving has helped a bit (until I move again that is!!)
So, fingers crossed that things look a bit better on the scan today and that I don't need to a) take any more time off work and b) they don't admit me to hospital!!!
S x
Friday, 23 September 2011
What a couple of days!
After our disappointment on Wednesday I'll admit I was a bit tearful the rest of the day. I don't think it helped that the scan caused me to have horrible tummy ache all night either.
Yesterday, however was worse. I wasn't too bad in the morning, but come mid afternoon I had horrific pains in my tummy to the point where I was struggling to walk because every step made it worse. I went to the swimming in the hope that would help, but if anything it made it worse and by the time I got home I couldn't do anything but lie on the sofa. At one point I was getting pretty worried it was OHSS and considered phoning the hospital to ask what to do, but I decided I'd give it over night and judge how it was this morning.
Thankfully it seems to have eased up a lot today, and although it's still tender it's bearable now. I'm wondering if it was maybe OV pains yesterday and was just a lot worse than normal because there were so many follicles to OV? We were advised by the nurse not to BD just in case because there was an increased chance of more than one egg fertilizing, but we kind of forgot! *oops* Just have to hope that nothing comes of it, although after over two years of TTC I don't think there's much chance of it anyway.
S x
Yesterday, however was worse. I wasn't too bad in the morning, but come mid afternoon I had horrific pains in my tummy to the point where I was struggling to walk because every step made it worse. I went to the swimming in the hope that would help, but if anything it made it worse and by the time I got home I couldn't do anything but lie on the sofa. At one point I was getting pretty worried it was OHSS and considered phoning the hospital to ask what to do, but I decided I'd give it over night and judge how it was this morning.
Thankfully it seems to have eased up a lot today, and although it's still tender it's bearable now. I'm wondering if it was maybe OV pains yesterday and was just a lot worse than normal because there were so many follicles to OV? We were advised by the nurse not to BD just in case because there was an increased chance of more than one egg fertilizing, but we kind of forgot! *oops* Just have to hope that nothing comes of it, although after over two years of TTC I don't think there's much chance of it anyway.
S x
Wednesday, 21 September 2011
Cycle Abandoned
Just back from the hospital and we've had to abandon this cycle as I overstimulated.
We were hoping for between 1-3 follicles, but there were seven mature and a lot of smaller ones too, so they can't proceed any further this month. Need to wait until AF arrives again then go back for a scan to check the follicles are all gone before we can start the next cycle.
I'm so disappointed that we've got this far only for it all to stop again
We were hoping for between 1-3 follicles, but there were seven mature and a lot of smaller ones too, so they can't proceed any further this month. Need to wait until AF arrives again then go back for a scan to check the follicles are all gone before we can start the next cycle.
I'm so disappointed that we've got this far only for it all to stop again
Tuesday, 20 September 2011
D Day Approaching
Tomorrow is D day - decision day that is!!
Tomorrow morning we're back at the FC for a scan to check how many follicles I have, and all being well I should be able to have my trigger shot in the afternoon (self administered) in order for IUI to take place on Thursday afternoon.
I've taken Thursday and Friday off work, partly because if the follicles aren't ready I'll have another Gonal F injection tomorrow and then back on Thursday to check them again, and partly because I'm really struggling to concentrate on anything at work just now. Due to the work I do, I really can't afford to make mistakes, so I figured until we get this part over with I'd (and my patients) be better taking some time off.
I'm not stressed about it all as such, but it has hit me in the last 24 hours that it's all very real now and things have moved very quickly (we only had our appointment to confirm we were starting treatment two weeks ago!) I don't know if it's the thought of it not working, and potentially having all this to do again another five times before we even start IVF, but it has freaked me out slightly. I'll be fine though I'm sure, although going on the last week or so I think I could be certifiable by the end of the TWW.
So please keep your fingers crossed for us that the follicles are nice and mature tomorrow, and that there are a maximum of three waiting for us as any more than that and we'll have to abandon the cycle.
S x
Tomorrow morning we're back at the FC for a scan to check how many follicles I have, and all being well I should be able to have my trigger shot in the afternoon (self administered) in order for IUI to take place on Thursday afternoon.
I've taken Thursday and Friday off work, partly because if the follicles aren't ready I'll have another Gonal F injection tomorrow and then back on Thursday to check them again, and partly because I'm really struggling to concentrate on anything at work just now. Due to the work I do, I really can't afford to make mistakes, so I figured until we get this part over with I'd (and my patients) be better taking some time off.
I'm not stressed about it all as such, but it has hit me in the last 24 hours that it's all very real now and things have moved very quickly (we only had our appointment to confirm we were starting treatment two weeks ago!) I don't know if it's the thought of it not working, and potentially having all this to do again another five times before we even start IVF, but it has freaked me out slightly. I'll be fine though I'm sure, although going on the last week or so I think I could be certifiable by the end of the TWW.
So please keep your fingers crossed for us that the follicles are nice and mature tomorrow, and that there are a maximum of three waiting for us as any more than that and we'll have to abandon the cycle.
S x
Monday, 19 September 2011
Feeling so let down
Apologies, I just read this post back and it's a bit of a ramble but I'm hoping it'll help to write it down.
I went to the hospital yet again today and had the third of my Gonal F injections. I say "had", but that should actually be "gave myself" as today I had to do the jab myself with the nurse watching to make sure I did it right. Apparently I'm a pro at it, so I'll be able to do all the injections from now on at home myself. I'm pleased about that as it will mean a lot less trips to the hospital.
So, next on the agenda is back to the FC on Wednesday for a scan to check if the follicles are ready.
Still doing well on the side effect front, although I have had a bit of an emotional night. The thing that upset me is that although we chose to tell my Mum that we were starting treatment this month she has shown no interest whatsoever and hasn't even asked if we've started or how it's going. We did say that we were hoping to pay for private treatment while we were waiting on NHS IVF, and Mum always said that she'd help us out with some of the money towards it. We didn't plan on taking her up on that, but it was nice to have the offer.
When we found out we could give IUI a try, I told Mum about it although we didn't mention if it was NHS or private and she didn't ask. Ever since then she has avoided us and even when she's been speaking to me has made a point of speaking about everything else except the biggest thing in our lives - trying to have a baby.
I think that she isn't bringing it up because she's worried we'll ask her for the money she's offered toward the treatment - not that we would even if it were private treatment - and for some reason she doesn't want to help us. Now, to put you in the picture my parents are far from short of cash and recently I claimed back PPI on their mortgage for them and I know that they received over £6k back.
The money isn't what is bothering me anyway, the thing that's upsetting me is that she doesn't even care what we're going through. It hurts even more because when we started attending the FC my oldest sister was going through fertility testing too. In the end, sadly her and her husband can't have kids, but all through her appointments and tests Mum made a point of calling us all to tell us what was going on. I always asked her anyway, because I was interested and cared and wanted to be there for her, but now we're the ones going through it all no one is interested at all. The only thing she seems to care about just now is her holiday (which is another bone of contention between her and us as she booked it with my middle sister and her kids and didn't want us and our kids to go)
The way I feel over all of this has really made me take a step back from my family and tonight I couldn't even bare to speak to Mum and made hubby lie to her that I wasn't here. I feel as though hubby and I are on our own.
S x
I went to the hospital yet again today and had the third of my Gonal F injections. I say "had", but that should actually be "gave myself" as today I had to do the jab myself with the nurse watching to make sure I did it right. Apparently I'm a pro at it, so I'll be able to do all the injections from now on at home myself. I'm pleased about that as it will mean a lot less trips to the hospital.
So, next on the agenda is back to the FC on Wednesday for a scan to check if the follicles are ready.
Still doing well on the side effect front, although I have had a bit of an emotional night. The thing that upset me is that although we chose to tell my Mum that we were starting treatment this month she has shown no interest whatsoever and hasn't even asked if we've started or how it's going. We did say that we were hoping to pay for private treatment while we were waiting on NHS IVF, and Mum always said that she'd help us out with some of the money towards it. We didn't plan on taking her up on that, but it was nice to have the offer.
When we found out we could give IUI a try, I told Mum about it although we didn't mention if it was NHS or private and she didn't ask. Ever since then she has avoided us and even when she's been speaking to me has made a point of speaking about everything else except the biggest thing in our lives - trying to have a baby.
I think that she isn't bringing it up because she's worried we'll ask her for the money she's offered toward the treatment - not that we would even if it were private treatment - and for some reason she doesn't want to help us. Now, to put you in the picture my parents are far from short of cash and recently I claimed back PPI on their mortgage for them and I know that they received over £6k back.
The money isn't what is bothering me anyway, the thing that's upsetting me is that she doesn't even care what we're going through. It hurts even more because when we started attending the FC my oldest sister was going through fertility testing too. In the end, sadly her and her husband can't have kids, but all through her appointments and tests Mum made a point of calling us all to tell us what was going on. I always asked her anyway, because I was interested and cared and wanted to be there for her, but now we're the ones going through it all no one is interested at all. The only thing she seems to care about just now is her holiday (which is another bone of contention between her and us as she booked it with my middle sister and her kids and didn't want us and our kids to go)
The way I feel over all of this has really made me take a step back from my family and tonight I couldn't even bare to speak to Mum and made hubby lie to her that I wasn't here. I feel as though hubby and I are on our own.
S x
Saturday, 17 September 2011
Knew it was too good to last!!
So off I trotted to the hospital today to have my second Gonal F injection. It was pretty straight forward really, just went into the ward and told the nurses who I was and they showed me into a treatment room. The nurse who did the injection was really nice, and when she injected the drugs it was a lot less painful than the last one. I'm not sure if it was because this one was on the opposite side and if maybe there was scar tissue from my appendectomy, but either way I'm not bothered so long as it wasn't painful. lol
As we were leaving the nurse wished us good luck, which was lovely but almost made me cry!!
Within a few hours my tummy started feeling quite bloated and heavy and it's still the same way. I did think it was a bit too good to be true that I didn't have any side effects at all, but if that's all I have to suffer then I won't complain.
I also decided to have a try of my practice injections tonight. I did one and have one to do tomorrow night before I inject myself on Monday at the hospital. It was a bit fiddly because it's the first time I'd done it, but it was pretty straight forward, although I did feel a bit sorry for the apple I injected!! lol
S x
As we were leaving the nurse wished us good luck, which was lovely but almost made me cry!!
Within a few hours my tummy started feeling quite bloated and heavy and it's still the same way. I did think it was a bit too good to be true that I didn't have any side effects at all, but if that's all I have to suffer then I won't complain.
I also decided to have a try of my practice injections tonight. I did one and have one to do tomorrow night before I inject myself on Monday at the hospital. It was a bit fiddly because it's the first time I'd done it, but it was pretty straight forward, although I did feel a bit sorry for the apple I injected!! lol
S x
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