So we officially start our first cycle in SIX days time - how scary is that after all the waiting around!!! You'd think I'd just be excited but the closer it's getting the more worried I am about it. Going on the IUI though I'm sure once I start injecting I'll be better as it gives you something to focus on and you feel like you're actually doing something.
There hasn't really been anything major going on in the last couple of weeks, just plodding along and killing time until we start. Today was a bit of a wobbly day for me though. Hubby and I took Dad's car out for a drive (he's still not able to drive after being ill) and decided to get a coffee and sit in the park drinking it to let the car run and charge the battery. We parked in the car park beside the beach, and it really hit me when I saw all the families with young kids playing and feeding the swans. I had that awful aching feeling in my heart that I've not had for a long long time, and I thought I was past that and must have come to terms with the fact that we might never get to be like that - but it seems not. It took all my effort not to cry, but the feeling did pass eventually and hopefully it won't come back for a while.
So this week is shaping up like this: Thursday is acupuncture with Maureen then Saturday is pro-stap. I've arranged with one of the girls from the support group to go to the cinema on Saturday evening, so that'll give me something to look forward to while I'm at the hospital. We're going to see Magic Mike so a proper girly film which should be a laugh.
S x
Sunday 15 July 2012
Monday 9 July 2012
You learn something new every day!!
The support group on Thursday was really informative as we had the information about what a cycle of IVF involves straight from the horses mouth (so to speak) Helen was really good at going through things and was open to any questions we had. She also told us something I didn't realise - if you have a successful cycle of IVF(ICSI) and still have frozen embryos, I thought you'd have to pay privately to use them as current NHS funding is not available if you have a child. However, Helen told us that if your cycle works and you have a baby, and are lucky enough to have some embies still frozen, you get another chance to use them up funded by the NHS (instead of injections you're given tablets for this, and it's only until you have another successful cycle) So there you go, just when you thought you knew everything about treatment you learn something new!! lol
Friday was my second acupuncture session with Maureen, which I was strangely looking forward to. I'd had a headache all day at work, so was hoping the session would help that too but sadly it didn't. She asked if I was including all the foods she'd advised me to have and if I was taking the herbs she'd given me (which I am) and then did some more treatment to encourage blood flow to my uterus in preparation for starting treatment. We worked out rough dates for when things "should" happen, so now I've got a bit more of a plan in my head of how things are going to progress after my next appointment. For some strange reason I've developed a whopper of a bruise where the needle was in my tummy which I've never had before, but I'm sure it's fine as I do tend to bruise easily most of the time.
Now it's just a case of waiting around until my next acupuncture session on 19th July, then it's back to the hospital on 21st for my pro-stap injection and the start of our next roller-coaster ride!!
S x
Friday was my second acupuncture session with Maureen, which I was strangely looking forward to. I'd had a headache all day at work, so was hoping the session would help that too but sadly it didn't. She asked if I was including all the foods she'd advised me to have and if I was taking the herbs she'd given me (which I am) and then did some more treatment to encourage blood flow to my uterus in preparation for starting treatment. We worked out rough dates for when things "should" happen, so now I've got a bit more of a plan in my head of how things are going to progress after my next appointment. For some strange reason I've developed a whopper of a bruise where the needle was in my tummy which I've never had before, but I'm sure it's fine as I do tend to bruise easily most of the time.
Now it's just a case of waiting around until my next acupuncture session on 19th July, then it's back to the hospital on 21st for my pro-stap injection and the start of our next roller-coaster ride!!
S x
Wednesday 4 July 2012
The first time I've been glad to see the Witch!!!
And she even had the decency to arrive early!!!! I wasn't expecting her until tomorrow, but she arrived on Saturday night (so counts as Sunday really) which meant I could get on the phone the the hospital for an appointment to go for my pro-stap injection.
It took me a while to get through, and I was starting to worry that I might be too late and wouldn't get an appointment but finally someone answered the phone!!! My appointment is on 21st July and I've to go to the ACS unit to have my injection done. I'm assuming I'll be in and out so trying not to think about too much, although I can't say I'm feeling the same way at the thought of the side-effects.
The pro-stap injection basically puts your body into the menopause, so you get the same symptoms - sweats, mood swings, sore boobs etc. I'm hoping that I won't be too bad with it as I haven't been too bad int he past when I was on meds, but who knows and I guess the only way to find out is to wait and see. After the injection it should take roughly two weeks (ish) for me to have a bleed then I go back for my first scan, blood tests and to collect my meds on 9th August.
After so long trying to get pregnant and then the long wait to get to the top of the list, it feels like things are motoring along now and it's quite scary. I'm not worried about the scans/injections etc, more that this is our last chance of having a baby and if it doesn't work I'll have to find a way to deal with that reality.
Since tomorrow is the first Thursday of the month, I'm off to my IF support group again, which I'm really looking forward to as we have a lady coming to speak to us from the hospital we all attend. She's a PGD (Pre Genetic Diagnosis) expert, so I'm not sure whether the talk will be just about that or about IVF in general, but I'm not bothered really as it'll be fab speaking to someone who knows all the ins and outs. Before tomorrow's meeting I'm meeting up with one of the girls for a coffee and a natter. I've only met C once at the group, but we've been chatting a lot by e-mail and we get on really well. She's such an easy person to talk to and it's great having someone who understands what you're going through and how you feel.
Friday is also my second acupuncture session (busy week for me this week) with Maureen as she wanted to see me when AF arrived again. I'm actually looking forward to it for some weird reason, maybe it's because it's a time that's just about me and nothing else. When AF arrived I started taking the herbs Maureen gave me last time, no effects from them but I'm hoping the help things a bit anyway.
S x
It took me a while to get through, and I was starting to worry that I might be too late and wouldn't get an appointment but finally someone answered the phone!!! My appointment is on 21st July and I've to go to the ACS unit to have my injection done. I'm assuming I'll be in and out so trying not to think about too much, although I can't say I'm feeling the same way at the thought of the side-effects.
The pro-stap injection basically puts your body into the menopause, so you get the same symptoms - sweats, mood swings, sore boobs etc. I'm hoping that I won't be too bad with it as I haven't been too bad int he past when I was on meds, but who knows and I guess the only way to find out is to wait and see. After the injection it should take roughly two weeks (ish) for me to have a bleed then I go back for my first scan, blood tests and to collect my meds on 9th August.
After so long trying to get pregnant and then the long wait to get to the top of the list, it feels like things are motoring along now and it's quite scary. I'm not worried about the scans/injections etc, more that this is our last chance of having a baby and if it doesn't work I'll have to find a way to deal with that reality.
Since tomorrow is the first Thursday of the month, I'm off to my IF support group again, which I'm really looking forward to as we have a lady coming to speak to us from the hospital we all attend. She's a PGD (Pre Genetic Diagnosis) expert, so I'm not sure whether the talk will be just about that or about IVF in general, but I'm not bothered really as it'll be fab speaking to someone who knows all the ins and outs. Before tomorrow's meeting I'm meeting up with one of the girls for a coffee and a natter. I've only met C once at the group, but we've been chatting a lot by e-mail and we get on really well. She's such an easy person to talk to and it's great having someone who understands what you're going through and how you feel.
Friday is also my second acupuncture session (busy week for me this week) with Maureen as she wanted to see me when AF arrived again. I'm actually looking forward to it for some weird reason, maybe it's because it's a time that's just about me and nothing else. When AF arrived I started taking the herbs Maureen gave me last time, no effects from them but I'm hoping the help things a bit anyway.
S x
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