Well I had to go and see the Orthopeadic Surgeon today at the local hospital. I've been on crutches for five months after developing Bursitis in my hip, but nothing so far has cured it. I've had two steroid injections, goodness knows how many anti-inflammatories and painkillers and even tried reflexology, but nothing has helped it at all. I've been stuck in the house this whole time too, which is not a good thing as I'm a terrible patient!! I did try to go back to work a few weeks ago, but lasted a whole two hours before my lab manager sent me home again.
So, off I trotted to the hospital this morning with the hope that they'd do something to stop the pain and let me get my life back. However, seems the NHS has a different idea about that!!! The surgeon was a total plank and was rude from the minute he came into the room - didn't listen to a thing I said, talked over me and then actually threw - yes threw - the blanket I'd had covering my legs at me when he was finished looking at my leg. My husband was actually on the verge of saying something to him, which says a lot because he never does anything like that.
The upshot is that he basically said he's not doing the operation I need because he doesn't belive in it!! If I need it done, I'll have to be ref'd onto another hospital for the surgeon there to do it for me. I've to go for an MRI scan before he'll decide what's to happen, so that's another three months of waiting around in pain for them to get me in for that.
So now I need to try and get back to work - partly because I'm bored silly and partly because I just can't afford to go onto half pay - no matter how much pain I'm in. Not looking forward to it in the slightest I must say, although it'll be good to get out of the house again.
On the plus side though, being in pain the last several months has meant that I've put the whole IVF thing to the back of my mind and we're now 3 months closer to starting treatment!!
S x
Monday, 20 June 2011
Saturday, 4 June 2011
It's Official
We are now officially on the IVF(ICSI) waiting list!!! The letter arrived this morning to say that we are on the list from 8th March 2011 and the clinic will get in touch with us when our name reaches the top of the list. I know we knew we were going onto the list, but somehow having it in writing to confirm it makes it a bit more real - and scary!!
I was watching a programme on TV a couple of nights ago ("Google Baby") and among other things the programme dealt with was a woman who was donating her eggs. She wasn't having the whole IVF process herself, but she still went through the same initial steps - scans, drugs, EC - and it was interesting to watch someone actually doing it. It did freak me out a bit though when she was injecting herself in the tummy.
I'm not bothered by needles, and having blood taken or having an injection doesn't bother me in the slightest. BUT, seeing her do it made me think about the fact that I'm going to have to do that to myself for X number of days when we start treatment - and now I'm worried!!!
We want a baby so badly that I am quite prepared to do anything to get there. I've known for a long time what the whole IVF process involves (and even have a few on-line friends who have had it and told me about it in detail) but for some reason that one programme and seeing that woman inject herself (she actually let her little girl do it for her some times too) made me wonder how I'm going to cope with it all. I've gotten over the whole internal scan/examination thing (I was drugged and raped 6 years ago and for a long time couldn't even cope with going for a smear test. Fertility treatment, however, soon cures you of that!) Hubby and I both understand the reaction the drugs could cause - in fact hubby has already decided that he'll be going away for at least a week while I'm drugged up!! lol One thing I didn't count on at all is that maybe I won't be able to actually inject the drugs myself, and I know hubby won't do it because he hates things like that.
It's started me thinking about "what if...." What if I can't inject myself? What if I go back to being scared of the examinations that have to be done? What if I have a bad reaction to the conscious sedation when/if we go for egg collection?
And the biggest "what if...." of all - what if it doesn't work?
S x
I was watching a programme on TV a couple of nights ago ("Google Baby") and among other things the programme dealt with was a woman who was donating her eggs. She wasn't having the whole IVF process herself, but she still went through the same initial steps - scans, drugs, EC - and it was interesting to watch someone actually doing it. It did freak me out a bit though when she was injecting herself in the tummy.
I'm not bothered by needles, and having blood taken or having an injection doesn't bother me in the slightest. BUT, seeing her do it made me think about the fact that I'm going to have to do that to myself for X number of days when we start treatment - and now I'm worried!!!
We want a baby so badly that I am quite prepared to do anything to get there. I've known for a long time what the whole IVF process involves (and even have a few on-line friends who have had it and told me about it in detail) but for some reason that one programme and seeing that woman inject herself (she actually let her little girl do it for her some times too) made me wonder how I'm going to cope with it all. I've gotten over the whole internal scan/examination thing (I was drugged and raped 6 years ago and for a long time couldn't even cope with going for a smear test. Fertility treatment, however, soon cures you of that!) Hubby and I both understand the reaction the drugs could cause - in fact hubby has already decided that he'll be going away for at least a week while I'm drugged up!! lol One thing I didn't count on at all is that maybe I won't be able to actually inject the drugs myself, and I know hubby won't do it because he hates things like that.
It's started me thinking about "what if...." What if I can't inject myself? What if I go back to being scared of the examinations that have to be done? What if I have a bad reaction to the conscious sedation when/if we go for egg collection?
And the biggest "what if...." of all - what if it doesn't work?
S x
Thursday, 2 June 2011
Decisions Decisions
The husband and I have been living in our own house for a while now (four and a half years) and it's always been one of our goals to be able to move either before and shortly after we have baby.
Our ideal house is something like this: old detached house, in need of restoration, with a big garden (I will have the veg garden I've always wanted but can't have here) a driveway and either a garage or room for a workshop for hubby to use for his bikes. Not asking a lot are we?!?!!?
Our current pass-time is looking on-line for the type of house we're after and going to see them. So far we've been to see an old church in need of conversion (it's called Walston Kirk in Scotland if anyone fancies a nosey) but it didn't have any garden - although it did come complete with it's own graveyard and a crypt inside it!! The other house we saw was a little miners cottage in the middle of nowhere. It needed some serious working doing to it - well when I saw work, it needed rebuilding because half of it had fallen down. It would have been perfect if it hadn't had two derelict houses quite close to it which belonged to an old man who died. No-one knows what will happen to them, so the kind of put us off that one (although it had the most amazing garden)
So our hunt will continue for the next while as we continue to save as much as we can to put toward a deposit and of course carry out any work we'd need to do.
Now here's the decision part!! I turn 30 next January (how did that happen?) and we had always planned to go on a big holiday to celebrate. We aren't going to be able to go away this year, so it'd be two years since out last holiday (to amazing Singapore and KL) so we planned on making it a big one.
I have to tell you that my husband is a total holiday snob and refuses to go on "normal" holidays to places like Spain and will only stay in hotels that are 4/5* The type of holidays we like usually run at around £2-3k for a couple of weeks, which is a lot of money but for something you love it's worth it right? I would like to be able to move house asap (the area we are in isn't really bad, but I just want to get our ideal house NOW) and now I don't know whether we should just book the holiday as planned, or not bother with a holiday and put the money toward the house (which would be a fairly big boost to the fund.
We are going to be due to start treatment not long after my birthday, so we will plan a weekend away before then to just relax before the roller coaster of IVF starts.
My head says fore go the holiday and boots the house fund, but then I see holiday adverts and think "oh I want that!!" Jeez I wish I was better at making decisions!!
Anyone got a magic 8 ball I can borrow?!?!!?!?
S x
Our ideal house is something like this: old detached house, in need of restoration, with a big garden (I will have the veg garden I've always wanted but can't have here) a driveway and either a garage or room for a workshop for hubby to use for his bikes. Not asking a lot are we?!?!!?
Our current pass-time is looking on-line for the type of house we're after and going to see them. So far we've been to see an old church in need of conversion (it's called Walston Kirk in Scotland if anyone fancies a nosey) but it didn't have any garden - although it did come complete with it's own graveyard and a crypt inside it!! The other house we saw was a little miners cottage in the middle of nowhere. It needed some serious working doing to it - well when I saw work, it needed rebuilding because half of it had fallen down. It would have been perfect if it hadn't had two derelict houses quite close to it which belonged to an old man who died. No-one knows what will happen to them, so the kind of put us off that one (although it had the most amazing garden)
So our hunt will continue for the next while as we continue to save as much as we can to put toward a deposit and of course carry out any work we'd need to do.
Now here's the decision part!! I turn 30 next January (how did that happen?) and we had always planned to go on a big holiday to celebrate. We aren't going to be able to go away this year, so it'd be two years since out last holiday (to amazing Singapore and KL) so we planned on making it a big one.
I have to tell you that my husband is a total holiday snob and refuses to go on "normal" holidays to places like Spain and will only stay in hotels that are 4/5* The type of holidays we like usually run at around £2-3k for a couple of weeks, which is a lot of money but for something you love it's worth it right? I would like to be able to move house asap (the area we are in isn't really bad, but I just want to get our ideal house NOW) and now I don't know whether we should just book the holiday as planned, or not bother with a holiday and put the money toward the house (which would be a fairly big boost to the fund.
We are going to be due to start treatment not long after my birthday, so we will plan a weekend away before then to just relax before the roller coaster of IVF starts.
My head says fore go the holiday and boots the house fund, but then I see holiday adverts and think "oh I want that!!" Jeez I wish I was better at making decisions!!
Anyone got a magic 8 ball I can borrow?!?!!?!?
S x
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