An up and down week

As happens often (make that very very often) when you've been TTC for a long time, I've had a bit of an up and down week this week.

Sunday afternoon hubby and I went to my sister's house for a BBQ (since the weather was lovely) but yet again hubby and I ended up arguing and going home early.
Long story short, he didnt' speak to me all night then went off to work nightshift without even saying goodbye - which we have never done as long as we've been together.  I got really upset and decided it was a good idea to have a glass of wine.  Now I don't drink very often, but an hour later the whole bottle was gone and I was sitting on the sofa crying my eyes out and debating going upstairs to pack my things and leave.  I was on FB speaking to friends, and spoke to a friend I met in horrible circumstances (we were both raped and met on a survivors forum)  We haven't spoken much in a while over a stupid falling out, but as has happened many times in the past, I ended up pouring out everything that's been going on to her. 

I eventually fell into bed - and I mean fell - and woke up the next day feeling a whole lot better about everything.  Hubby came home and we made up again which helped too.

Since then Mum has been in hospital for an op, so I've had something else to focus on/worry about which means not so much dwelling on things.  Speaking to a friend (virtual one but someone I class as a good friend) tonight on FB I decided to tell her about the whole egg-sharing thing as the only other person I've spoken to about it is my Mum.  It was so nice to have someone to share it with and she was so supportive about the whole thing (and wants to be kept updated)  Even better - one of her friends went with egg-sharing too and now has twin girls and is willing to talk to me about it all!!!  I'm so happy that I can ask all the niggling questions I have before we commit to it 100% and the answers will come from someone who's been there - not some Doctor or nurse who doesn't know how it actually feels to go through it.

All in all I'm feeling a lot clearer about the next step on our path to having a baby and hopefully before long we'll have all the tests and appointments we need to get started on treatment.

S x